The Double Agent: Between the Pharasee and Tax Collector

What does it mean when your heart longs for

justice to be delivered.
mercy to be shown.
significance.
a more natural selflessness.
healing from broken patterns.
a well of kindness from within.
peace.
a genuine love for others.
clear thinking.
determination to finish.
excellence in what you do.

And yet despite all the grace and love you find yourself

being annoyed at KLOVE all week long, and then worshiping to the acoustical version of the song on Sunday in church.

being enraged at the headline of the innocent killed by a drunk driver, but you two and a half glasses of wine after a long week and then drove home.

you pour in love and hope into a crushed heart that's been placed in your path, yet you do not bother to hide the deep disdain for the angry and rude man who lives in unit #1.

deep and heartfelt prayer for a good friend's relative who you don't know, and a total inability to sustain an effort to plead for your brother.

Luke 18: 9-14

Confess it like you mean it and then you will

deliver justice.
show mercy.
find significance in humility.
be selfless.
stomp out broken patterns.
well up with kindness.
breath peace.
genuinely love.
think.
finish.
polish with excellence.